Burnt out? Eat C.A.K.E. Daily

I’ve been reflecting a lot since my final burnout episode at work. I call it an episode because these circumstances were just a culmination of all of my choices over the last ten years coming to a head. All the worry and overwhelm tore me down to the point that I felt as though I was dying. I felt numb and experienced deep chest pains.

My quest to be the best employee ever- was over. I have no regrets, I did what I needed to do for my own survival. And although I deeply know that it was for my own well-being, I am still healing from the abuse, and mourning the loss of my identity and the connections that I made at work that I thought were like family.

Now, I have awoken to the reality that I no longer need to endure the abuse to define my self-worth. That a job that made me feel inadequate for promotions and spotlights was not worth my precious time and energy. After being shoved in a corner and told, “go back to work, you’re not doing enough,” an uncountable amount of times- I’m free.

Enoughness is something that I have struggled with my entire life. I guess it’s the moral of my story. Me, finally realizing that I was always enough. Not only am I enough, I’m fabulously a lot- my husband likes to remind me of this on a daily basis.

I am trying to do my best, as we all are. As I continue to work through the stages of grief, I still mourn the loss, but I look forward to the future. We must allow ourselves to look back on the loss and feel the shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, depression and loneliness, so that we can accept it and reconstruct our lives. We all have the enoughness to act on what is best for our own well being and enable ourselves to do our best- we just have to take that leap in believing in our own strength, skills, and self-worth.

For me, this reconstruction is taking on many forms. I’m really digging the diversity of my day-to-day work. I’m now choosing daily to serve my community through my coaching, art, and by living my life consciously without the guilt, shame, and passive aggressive behaviors from co-workers.

“I choose daily”– wow- just writing that sentence out gives me chills. The empowerment of choice- to get to choose how to react and move through my day with grace, and compassion for myself and others. This is the work that I want to share with the world.

It’s what I really want in life.

C.A.K.E.
Connecting
Authentically with
Kindness and
Evolution — Daily!

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